Lost n’ Found

It feels like I have been gone from the blogging world for so long.  It is CRAZY it has been a over 4 months!  So much has happened since May.  I drove my best friend cross-country  (she has yet to return), we moved into our new house, and yet another big step in our trying to conceive journey.  The only thing I can really blame it on is summer πŸ˜‰

We just had our big house warming party this past Saturday.  It was so much work, yet one of the best nights of my life.  Our family and friends had a great time.  I don’t know what it is, but I absolutely love entertaining.  I wish I could say that I would actually make it into a business, but I honestly know too much about to know it would drive me to the nuthouse!  The decorations turned out perfect and I thought the food was pretty tasty too!  My other bestie, Lisa was absolutely incredible and I couldn’t have done any of it without her.  We make a darn good team πŸ™‚  Pictures of our shin-dig to follow.
Another love of mine has come to the surface again… crafting πŸ™‚  I have made more crafts since we have lived in this house (2 months, mind you), then I did in a whole year at our old house!  I’m going to take that as I am happy πŸ™‚  And yes, I would have to say I am happier than I have been in a VERY long time.  
Felicia has been gone since July and it seems like an eternity.  I am so happy for her, but am so ready for her to come back.  It was so strange for me to have a first (our first house party) without her.  She has always been there for me, but I know she felt she needed to move away and I support her.  I keep telling myself that this is not the first time we have lived in different cities in our 11 years of friendship, but it seems the hardest.  The fact that I am going to have a child without her being here rips me up on the inside πŸ™
And yes, we WILL be having a child soon!  Our other big news is that I started IFV (In vitro fertilization) today πŸ™‚  Chris and I had our first appointment last week and decided to put our money where our mouth is and start this new journey in becoming parents!  It is a huge step for us, but one that we feel confident about in completing our dream.  We were pretty nervous going into this new Dr.s office and were especially freaked out waiting for the dr and reading all of the IFV paperwork.  The nervousness subsided as we talked to our Dr.  He is amazing!  And he is very confident that we are good candidates and we will be successful in our IVF cycle.  He just helped friends of our get pregnant when she was told she would never be able to have children, so his track record is good πŸ™‚

Wow… the thought that we will be pregnant in less than 2 months has put our relationship on overdrive!  We are both so happy of the thought of finally being a mommy and daddy!!!!    The amazing thing is the science behind it all.  We can know up to the minute of conception and have pictures of the magnified embryos in the petri dish!  Seriously… you can’t say that isn’t cool πŸ™‚  Even though this isn’t how either of us thought we would become parents, it really does feel like its our path.  I can’t explain it, but I feel so at peace with it.  God really has warmed my heart of using science.  Even being poked an prodded today for my initial physical and uterine measurement, I didn’t care.  I told the doctor that I was willing to do whatever I needed to do in order for this dream to become a reality….  and our reality is coming soon enough….. needles and all  πŸ˜‰

I am also thankful that IFV has inspired me to also start writing again.  I feels amazing to write down what I am feeling on this blog, even if people actually do read it.  Maybe, just maybe… my new IFV journey will inspire or help someone through their own mission of becoming parents πŸ™‚