It only seems fitting that these past few days I have been reflecting on 2011.
I am thankful that the promise of this new year makes the hope and anticipation of the future almost unbearable for me πŸ™‚  I am excited for what 2012 will bring!

I have been a bit “blog silent” through the Holidays because honestly, I needed time to really work through the loss that we encountered with the failing in vitro cycle.  I have read of some clinics around the country that actually offer counseling sessions before, during and after a cycle because it is such an intense process.  Physically, spiritually and mentally…  it is a tough cookie.
It takes my breath away to know that God had a hand on our family scheduling a vacation this past September for New Orleans during Christmastime.  The vacation ended up starting three days after we got the sad news.  The crazy part about IVF is that you have no say exactly on the dates to start.  It took us over two months after the day we decided to take on this adventure to get the end results of a failed pregnancy.
There really is something about the charm about the city of New Orleans; plenty of tasty Cajun food, adult beverages, mechanical bulls (oh I sure did!) and the addition of my family that made some of the shock and sadness start to fade.
The city of the fleur de lis holds a special place in Chris & I’s our hearts because that was the spot of Chris and I’s first vacation together a few months after we started dating.  It was the first Mardi Gras after Hurricane Katrina and boy was it crazy!!  I’m pretty sure that the two of us knew we were meant to spend our life together after that trip.  <3  Oh the stories we have….  πŸ™‚

Here is us in 2006 and then in 2011 at Pat O’s.

It is amazing how fast 5 years can fly by!  
I am Blessed that my love for my incredible husband continues to grow with each year that we have together <3
This past year may not have brought us a child as we had hoped, but in review it was a great year in every other aspect.  Our business is continuing to grow to heights we never imagined with some incredible leaders that have some big dreams and goals, we moved into our first house that we hope to buy soon, my husband decided to get a job to help with insurance costs, and we took the proactive steps in becoming parents.  There really is no other place to go than up in this New Year  πŸ™‚
With all of the craziness of The Holidays over and waking up to a brand new year this morning at my sister’s house, I am confident that 2012 WILL be the best one yet!  The more time I spend with my little sister and my niece, I fall more in love with the idea of becoming a mother.  It fuels me to keep fighting this fight of finally being “mom” and “dad.”  I have to share this picture (one of the many) adorable pictures with my husband and my niece in New Orleans.  He is honestly going to be the most amazing dad that I have ever known and it melts my heart.  Jaidyn adores her uncle <3
Our follow up appointment with our RE about our failed IVF cycle is Tuesday morning.  After a lot of praying and time spent talking (we drove to New Orleans for peets sake!) about what happened we have decided to go ahead and do a frozen cycle (FET) with our one remaining embryo.  This will be a less intensive process as a “fresh” IVF cycle, but will still take some work with time at the dr and meds.  I will post updates as soon as we get some actual information on what may have happened with the failed cycle and what steps we need to  take to move forward.   
Thank you all for your prayers, thoughts, love, and support during this journey πŸ™‚  I know the prayers have continued to help soften the blows we have experienced along the way.  The great news is we have already told our families that we WILL have a child by next Christmas, even if it means we have to start the adoption process πŸ™‚
Here’s to a glorious New Year for us all!