As I look at my son sleeping next to me in his bassinet my heart wants to explode with love. Seriously how did I not believe moms when they told me that a love for a son is so different than a daughter? I keep wanting to put it into words, but can’t. Zander makes me feel complete. Even though he has only been on this earth for 3 months, I can not imagine life without him.
Not so very long ago I was going through one of the hardest times that I had ever experienced as a mom. A non- latcher. He wouldn’t breastfeed. I went through a gamete of emotions surrounding this and was closer to giving up than I ever had been at anything. My son is my 3rd child in 3 years. This breastfeeding thing was not new to me!
During this time I had some wonderful supporters. Friends that would text or message me with encouragement, my precious midwives and a lactation consultant. Thank you to those friends.. having a cheering session really did make the difference for me. Before we left for the lake one friend mentioned a SNS (Supplemental Nursing System.) After some research I knew this had to be my last option. The thought of a tube attached to my breasts with tape and have it feed into a contraption that hung on my neck was very daunting. If you have no clue what this is. Dr. Google it. It really is genius. I emailed my INCREDIBLE lactation consultant, Laura Grueber with Breastfeeding house calls. I wanted to schedule my third visit and I wanted to try this thing. She told me that she would pick one up for me and bring it the next week. Side Note: This woman is an angel and does so much for the breastfeeding community. My wish is that every mom and especially the new ones, have a Laura in their life to really help them with their dream of breastfeeding.
My encouragement for mamas that may be wanting to give up, don’t! If you are really passionate about it then don’t throw in the towel until you have exhausted all of your options. Know that when you have gone to bed that night that there was nothing else that you could have done to help make it happen. It all sucks. Believe me, I know. But after all of that pain, we are victorious! We are no longer spending hours washing bottles and breast pump junk. Now I can quickly and easily feed my precious son when he is hungry with the flip of a nursing bra strap. 🙂
Praying for all you mamas out there that may be fighting this battle!
In my first post about my breastfeeding hell I had a picture of my youngest daughter and the breast pump. She would always try to imitate me because all she saw me do is pump and feed her brother a bottle. This picture of my oldest “breastfeeding” her baby doll, Jenna shows how far we have come! My girls now nurse their dolls instead of try to use the breast pump!