Being Present

A  few days ago I had a conversation with a girlfriend about this stage in our lives.  The constant entertaining of a toddler, wiping a behind and all of the other stuff that goes along with keeping a small human alive on a daily basis!  Being a stay at home mom is hard on so many levels.  I also always have the feeling of “not doing enough.” Either with my business that I help run from our home, keeping the house picked up or keeping up with a girlfriend.

The thought hit me like a ton of bricks.  My kids will only be kids for a short amount of time.  In just a few months my son, my baby, will start attending a 2 day a week Mother’s Day Out.  Granted that is only a few days a week, but time is moving fast.  I will not beat myself up over helping in our business, having all the laundry folded or being MIA on friends.  God has entrusted me with a beautiful family that I have the honor or loving and leading.  At this point in my life that is all that matters.  So today and everyday after this one I will be more aware of being present in the moment and enjoy this stage of parenting and soak it all in.  Everything else can wait.

My baby is not a baby


Someone told me when my eldest daughter was a baby that the days are long and the years are short.  It couldn’t be more true.

I can not even believe that my baby girl will be 6 months old tomorrow.  How did it go by faster this time than my first child??  I am sure part of it is that the girls are only 18 months apart, but it needs to stop!!  Right now it is 10:00 at night and I am watching sweet baby E roll around on the floor in the living room.  From her back to her stomach and then to her back again.  She loves her new “game.”  Since this kid has been 3 months old she has gone down at 8pm, sometimes sooner.  She isn’t a consistent sleeper though the niter and do have a pretty regular nursing session at 4am.  I want to finally move her into her room, but it will be sad to see my baby go.  I will however enjoy hopefully sleeping a continuous 8 hours (I hope.)
Tonight she is smiling, laughing and acting as if it was 10 in the morning.  Hmmm…  It has to be a growth spurt or another tooth. Infants are so unpredictable, but I love that about them.  One of the many things I adore about my #2 is her amazing disposition. For example.. something is definitely up with her and she is happy and laughing and “purring” like a champ.  She is like this 99% of the time!  We are so very Blessed with this baby girl.

At this time 6 short months ago we were at the Birth Center and I was in active labor.  My dreams of a successful VBAC (vaginal birth after c-section) were about to come true!  These past few months I have been going through some serious personal growth and whenever I get down on myself about something or have negative self talk, I remind myself about my birth with Everleigh.  I have never EVER worked so hard at anything and been so determined.  Praise God for my friend Chelsea Lietz and the pictures she took of our birth.  If you or anyone you know are on the fence about birth photography.. DO IT!  Natural, drugs, c-section, in the woods.. I don’t care how you bring a miracle into this world, but get it on film from someone that isn’t as vested as you and your partner!  And ps. If you are in South Texas look up Chelsea.  She is pretty stinking incredible at Newborn Photography, but I continue to be constantly impressed by her skills in other areas!

My goal in the next week or so is to finally write out my birth story in entirety.  Not only for me, but to inspire someone else that may have a dream of a natural birth as I did.  Until then, watch the video of my sweet baby girl’s Birthday.  I promise there are no super graphic photos.  Those are just for us!  <3
Birth of Baby E by Chelsea Lietz

Be Blessed,

Fastest 2 Years of my Life!

Tonight I wanted to tuck my little girl into bed.  Usually this is a “daddy thing” as my husband does bath and bed with our oldest daughter.  I was feeling a little nostalgic as it was the last night that by baby would be 1 years old.  When I went to tell her goodnight she said, “Mama hold you.”  Of course I wanted nothing more than to hold her.  I gladly picked her up and sat in the rocker that was my moms that I was rocked in as a child.  I rocked her slowly and told her how much I loved her.  Tears came to my eyes as I thought back to how special the day was that I became a mother.  A day that will forever change who I am and who I will become. It was a day that I prayed and hoped for my entire life.  I held her tight and thanked God for this sweet girl and the opportunity to be her mother. 

Her legs are no longer curled up by my belly but now in my lap, my baby is no longer a baby.  She is a toddler with thoughts, dreams and a mind of her own. She is extremely smart and continues to amaze us daily.  She as known her entire alphabet since she was a little over 1, knows her shapes, colors, her animals and their sounds, how to count to 20 and her vocabulary is insane!  I tell people all the time I wish I could contribute her brilliance to what we are doing, but she honestly loves to learn! I pray she never loses this yearning for more. She also loves “her people.”  Everyone who is in her circle of family/friends she adores and talks about them daily.  We call it “role call” and while she is in bed you can hear her talking about everyone.  And she never, ever forgets a name or face.  Once your in.. your in.  <3  She has also taken to becoming a big sister beautifully.  She is so gentle and kind with Everleigh and includes her in everything.  She is the first person she asks for in the morning and the last before she goes to bed.  Impromptu hugs and kisses for her baby sister are the norm.  She also likes to hold her even if it only lasts for a few seconds.  <3  (I honestly think she does not like to hold her very long because her “little” sister is well on her way to being bigger than her!)

Her “Mem-me” mouse that she is holding in the picture above is with her EVERYWHERE.  It rarely leaves her side.  That is pretty special for me since I got it while I was pregnant and went to Disney Land.  She was a good eater until a few months ago and now eating a vegetable is few and far between, but we aren’t giving up.  Her favorite food right now is hummus!  No lie, the kid could eat it morning, noon and night!  That and her USANA shakes.  Without fail we know she will always eat (or drink) them both.  She wants to be outside any opportunity she can and her favorite thing to do is swing.  Daddy recently got her a big girl swing and she was so happy!  She started “school” a Mothers Day Out at a local church in February and is loving it!  She adores her teachers and talks about them everyday. It is hard to have her away for a few hours each week, but I know it will help her in the long run.  Her Oma & Opa are two of her favorite people and we love watching her bond with them grow.  We couldn’t be happier that they are retired and are able to enjoy her as often as they want her and she loves, loves, loves her time with them.  <3

The last two years have gone by entirely too fast.  I wish nothing more than it to slow down, yet I look forward to what she will become.  I pray that she will be a strong, powerful woman who loves the Lord and follows her heart.  I feel so thankful and Blessed for these past two years for my sweet Adalynn Elaine.  I know that all of the struggles that I am having with my own mother are helping to really give me perspective on being a mother.  On appreciating life and every day we have on this earth.  Happy 2nd Birthday my sweet girl.  Your mommy loves you more than you will ever know.